"The foot feels the foot when it feels the ground" Buddha.
This has been my lesson this week. What I take it to mean is that we are. We exist, we do not simply observe. The reality I see is from my perspective. My foot feels itself when it feels the ground. I don't feel the ground untouched by my existence. I never will in this lifetime.
We get so caught up in our own perspectives and it's really easy to become so involved in something that we lose perspective. Those wonderful souls on a path to enlightenment fall victim to this as well. As much as I would love to believe this is a lesson I can no longer think about, that just isn't the case. We all need a reality check. We all need to live in the moment, without attachment to our wants or desires. I believe that life is a give and take. Notice the give comes first.
I love me. I really enjoy the person I am. I have worked long and hard to come to this place. I still fall into self doubt and insecurity. I still read way too much into a situation when I am in that place. I tend to add up all the things I do not like and assume the person I am feuding with knows about this compilation I have created. How could they not?? It comes from them! Yeah right! You could pile up my B.S. taller than I am and I wouldn't see it either. Without communication we will never know. Then resentments build. Then If I try to talk to you about what is hurting my feelings my hurt or anger is completely disproportionate to how you will view your actions. How can I expect you to apologize for a creation of my imagination? Especially when it's not you I'm mad at but rather my inaction, but I'd rather be mad at you than be honest with myself.
I pull myself out of that when I realize that I am you and you are me. We are, after all, human... all of us. I find compassion in the realization that though we may be different, we are the same in the grand scheme of things. When I am able to let go of my attachments. When I can no longer cling to the need for you to humble yourself and apologize for hurting my feelings by not returning my e-mail fast enough or not calling me soon enough. What does it all mean anyway? If you don't call me, I will not cease to exist. I won't lose the spark of light I carry which is me. I cannot make you call me. I cannot manipulate you, through my anger and hurt feelings, to force you to bend to my will. I exist to my own standards. You exist to yours. I have the responsibility of letting you know when something you say or do hurts my feelings. It is up to you from there, but I cannot judge what you do, or don't do by what is right or wrong for me. You will never meet my standards. How can you? Can you paint the Mona Lisa without ever seeing it? From there I decide what will and what won't work in my life and communicate that. I cannot do anything else but be me and be true to me. When I do that, when I recognize all of my attachment which I have placed on you instead of opening my heart and being vulnerable I realize that you aren't my adversary, you are my brother, sister, mother, father, everyone. All of my heartaches are caused by my own inaction, by not being true to me in the most honest of ways. When I cut those delusional threads freedom is revealed. I am free to be me, which ends my energetic pulling on you. I stop pinging you with my energy and appreciate the real you in my life. If I cling to those delusions, I never fully appreciate who you are... and you're worth so much more than that!
The foot feels the foot when it feels the ground.
Of course it does, it's all the same, we're all the same and we're all connected.
My hand feels my hand when it touches your heart. I feel you in me and I feel me in you. Isn't that beautiful?
Chenrezig Mantra - Om mani peme hung- on a sunflower
This has been my lesson this week. What I take it to mean is that we are. We exist, we do not simply observe. The reality I see is from my perspective. My foot feels itself when it feels the ground. I don't feel the ground untouched by my existence. I never will in this lifetime.
We get so caught up in our own perspectives and it's really easy to become so involved in something that we lose perspective. Those wonderful souls on a path to enlightenment fall victim to this as well. As much as I would love to believe this is a lesson I can no longer think about, that just isn't the case. We all need a reality check. We all need to live in the moment, without attachment to our wants or desires. I believe that life is a give and take. Notice the give comes first.
I love me. I really enjoy the person I am. I have worked long and hard to come to this place. I still fall into self doubt and insecurity. I still read way too much into a situation when I am in that place. I tend to add up all the things I do not like and assume the person I am feuding with knows about this compilation I have created. How could they not?? It comes from them! Yeah right! You could pile up my B.S. taller than I am and I wouldn't see it either. Without communication we will never know. Then resentments build. Then If I try to talk to you about what is hurting my feelings my hurt or anger is completely disproportionate to how you will view your actions. How can I expect you to apologize for a creation of my imagination? Especially when it's not you I'm mad at but rather my inaction, but I'd rather be mad at you than be honest with myself.
I pull myself out of that when I realize that I am you and you are me. We are, after all, human... all of us. I find compassion in the realization that though we may be different, we are the same in the grand scheme of things. When I am able to let go of my attachments. When I can no longer cling to the need for you to humble yourself and apologize for hurting my feelings by not returning my e-mail fast enough or not calling me soon enough. What does it all mean anyway? If you don't call me, I will not cease to exist. I won't lose the spark of light I carry which is me. I cannot make you call me. I cannot manipulate you, through my anger and hurt feelings, to force you to bend to my will. I exist to my own standards. You exist to yours. I have the responsibility of letting you know when something you say or do hurts my feelings. It is up to you from there, but I cannot judge what you do, or don't do by what is right or wrong for me. You will never meet my standards. How can you? Can you paint the Mona Lisa without ever seeing it? From there I decide what will and what won't work in my life and communicate that. I cannot do anything else but be me and be true to me. When I do that, when I recognize all of my attachment which I have placed on you instead of opening my heart and being vulnerable I realize that you aren't my adversary, you are my brother, sister, mother, father, everyone. All of my heartaches are caused by my own inaction, by not being true to me in the most honest of ways. When I cut those delusional threads freedom is revealed. I am free to be me, which ends my energetic pulling on you. I stop pinging you with my energy and appreciate the real you in my life. If I cling to those delusions, I never fully appreciate who you are... and you're worth so much more than that!
The foot feels the foot when it feels the ground.
Of course it does, it's all the same, we're all the same and we're all connected.
My hand feels my hand when it touches your heart. I feel you in me and I feel me in you. Isn't that beautiful?
Chenrezig Mantra - Om mani peme hung- on a sunflower
